..the hiatus effect.....flip flopping through the pages of my life..how it's full of tarnished old stains that can never seem to fade away from the history book..it will remain there as it was first seen..i'm not the Goddess that could take a glimpse of the journey ahead..it seems so far away, i wonder if i'm ever going to reach it..i'm not flawless..i make tons of mistakes, but it's not an opportunity for other person to decide whether i was to be punished or not but it is a chance to forgive me for the things i've done wrong..apologizing sincerely seems not to work out..i'm staying strong, but i'm not a fighter..i wish i was, but i'm weak inside..i'm not capable to wake up instantly like nothing has happened..i'm just an ordinary human being, maybe i was too ordinary..i'm no longer happy as i was before..i may be smiling and laughing but deep inside it's full of pain and hurt that makes me suffer each time i chuckle..i want to start a new chapter in this historical book of mine, but it's hard to even finish the previous chapter without pausing at every phrase..it takes a lot of time before i could ever move on..but hey, it's not the end of d world; there are still things i want to do..breaking up is not dying..life goes on as usual for me..Cheer up!!
