..bitter pill to swallow...

..Assalamualaikum w.b.t N mungkin tidak terlambat untuk gua mengucapkan salam Maal Hijrah 1432 H kepada semua umat Islam di seluruh dunia..hehe..mcm 1 dunia je baca blog gua..when i'm writing, there's must be something happen that fluctuated my emotions..because i thought that i'm writing well when i'm slightly demotivated..eh betul ke ayat gua nie..hantam saja lah..gua bukan anak mat Salleh pun.. hurmm..by the way, this entry is dedicated to someone that have made a confession on me..n honestly i'm still shocked eventhough i feel like it could be predicted..firstly, please..please..please forgive me..i should response fast enough..and secondly, i wanna tell u that i like the way our friendship is progressing..but i hope it won't be affected by either any interior or inferior disturbance..i really appreciate yours as well as other friends..but to move on to another stages..i'm afraid that i couldn't take it..there's something that i want to achieve..there's some place that i want to go..n there's someone that i want to wait despite that it could hurt me later..it could be me who will have the last cry..but i think it's worth waiting for it..maybe someday i'll regret my decision but we're human being after all..can't run from making mistake..n i'm always praying for we could get a better life..as the time goes on..InsyaAllah...

..Sorry to Keep Ya Waiting...

I know that some of you have been waiting intently for my next post...
And maybe was hoping that this would be it...
But I regret to tell u that it is not...
I haven't been in a writing mood lately...
There's just so many things to say and to express but I can't seem to be in the right, calm, zen mode to be able to do it...
But I promise NEW POSTS soon...
Till then....

May Allah always protect you all...
Amin...

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..the hopeless of the hopefuls...

ok fine..nie entri gua yg pertama di bulan syawal yg mulia ini..pelbagai banyak kisah dan tauladan yg berlaku sepanjang bulan ramadhan yg x sempat gua nk cite kt sume org..haha..hampir kene saman lah sbb potong kt double-line..handset gua ilang di TGV JJ Tebrau di kala semua umat manusia mencari malam lailatul Qadar..hehe..syawal kali ini..mengingatkan kepada ex rumet gua yg menjaga gua sewaktu gua dilanda demam campak mase final year kt upmkb(syawal tahun lepas x teringat plak eh..hehe)..damn's nice and thanx to him..gua dh jadi macam mumia kt dalam bilik mase 2..n movie seperti pada gambar yg tertera di atas..gua dh tgk lebih kurang 6x dalam mase kurang dr 2 minggu selepas raya..dulu kt kampus gua tgk lompat2 mase rumet gua layan..skang bile layan sorang2 kt umah..rase mcm feel pulak..dh masuk mode sentimental dh nie..ahhh feeling like missing something..upmkb..bsbi..dan juga krew2 gua kt sane..haha..sebelum sentimental gua ni melarat..gua nk blah dulu..sume org kt opis ni pn dh balik..balik lambat pn bknnye boleh claim ot..chow!!

..bad blood rises...

entri gua kali ini utk berkongsi sesuatu yg agak menyakitkan hati..apatah lagi ianya berlaku pada bulan yg mulia ini malahan di khayalak ramai..petang semalam..dlm perjalanan gua balik ke kampung dr tempat keje, gua singgah sebentar di bazaar ramadhan utk membeli juadah berbuka..gua mmg plan nk g lmbt skit sbb lepas beli juadah berbuka..gua nk terus balik berbuka di umh (kirenye x singgah melagho di mane2 tempat la nie..hehe)...sesampainya gua kt bazaar, gua pun menyusup masuk ikut jalan belakang..lengang skit..x yah nak berhimpit2 dgn org ramai..tibe2 gua terpandang kt sekumpulan remaja yg tgh melepak kt tepi longkang sebelah bazaar tue.."eh..dh masuk waktu berbuka ke nie"..hati gua berdetak sbb melihat segelintir makhluk dr kumpulan tersebut menghisap rokok..haish..x dgr azan pun..gua pn terkial2 kuarkn henpon gua sbb nk memastikan waktu semasa (gua x mampu nk pakai jam tangan..hehe)..dan seperti yg dijangka..belum masuk waktu berbuka lg!!! ape kejadah nye mamat tue smoking dgn muka bangga dgn member2 die kt tepi longkang 2..elok la 2..perangai pn dh mcm longkang..igt mandat die besar sgt ke nk menunjuk yg diri sendiri x puasa di khayalak ramai..iye..gua tau..kubur lain2...tp x salah kan kalo lu cover2 skit nk smoking tue..x malu ke budak2 kecik tgk?org2 tua tgk?x malu dgn Tuhan??ape la...gua tau gua pn xde la baik sgt...takat nk tunjuk otai tahap x igt dunia pn jgn la mcm 2 derr..respect skit org lain yg berpuasa..tue x campur dgn kaum Hawa yg g bazaar pakai baju mcm nk g clubbing...atau g garden party...akak2 oi..kesian la kt kami kaum Adam nie..bkn nye nk tunjuk baik..tp sekurang2 nye..hormatilah bulan Ramadhan..masih x terlambat lg kn??

..still doom and gloom...

"i'm not read well..but when i do read, i read well"

..tomorrow will be my last day for probation and in a mean time, i'll be officially represented as devoted servant for biotropics at research station..

..but then, working for them doesn't mean i'm out of the woods yet..there's still much to be done before "they" will have upper-look in me..although i think i'm already missed the boat(sorely miss bcoz she'll deliver her 1st baby this month)..however this is paradigm-quantum leap(ayat yg gua blaja mase g "7 Habits of highly effective people") for me to prove for "them" that i can succeed like others equally..arggghh!! why i'm still remember everything..most likely on the way she walk..on the moment she talk..but perhaps i'm already found her natural replacement..a gift from HIM, i think..hopefully she'll be the chosen one..nuff said...

..times to move on...

..the hiatus effect...

..flip flopping through the pages of my life..how it's full of tarnished old stains that can never seem to fade away from the history book..it will remain there as it was first seen..i'm not the Goddess that could take a glimpse of the journey ahead..it seems so far away, i wonder if i'm ever going to reach it..i'm not flawless..i make tons of mistakes, but it's not an opportunity for other person to decide whether i was to be punished or not but it is a chance to forgive me for the things i've done wrong..apologizing sincerely seems not to work out..i'm staying strong, but i'm not a fighter..i wish i was, but i'm weak inside..i'm not capable to wake up instantly like nothing has happened..i'm just an ordinary human being, maybe i was too ordinary..i'm no longer happy as i was before..i may be smiling and laughing but deep inside it's full of pain and hurt that makes me suffer each time i chuckle..i want to start a new chapter in this historical book of mine, but it's hard to even finish the previous chapter without pausing at every phrase..it takes a lot of time before i could ever move on..but hey, it's not the end of d world; there are still things i want to do..breaking up is not dying..life goes on as usual for me..Cheer up!!

..for my Dearest Deddy....

ini adalah kek yg di"cilok" dari blog peminat honda city..sekian..=p

..it's my birthday a few days ago..time flies so fast,huh?i'm already 24! .. it was such a happy moment for me. for those who have been wish me around ,celebrating my special day too. please know that you are always in my thoughts and prayers. always stay as sweet as you are. ur kindness and innocence, never ever let go of those qualities.i wish u good health always, more success, and happiness...

Remarks

1st person to wish (via sms) --> farhana jimale
1st person to wish (via facebook) --> wawa suhaiza
1st person to wish (phone call) --> 'peminat honda city' *siap nyanyi
1st person i see since 24 years old --> ahmad syafiq masduqi
1st person to give present --> ahah..i'll keep it as a secret ya..
last person that wish my birthday --> nina chan (in a mean time..could be changed..)