..I am NOTHING...

it is not that i am not thankful. i am.

tapi entahlah. selalu rasa kecil dan diperkecil.

selalu rasa tidak penting dan dipinggirkan.

selalu rasa gagal dan dipandang gagal.

why?

hurmm...

i am not as good as they are.

i am not good. indeed.

P/S : as i'm only finished the thing that she's started..

..Harapan Ramadhan...

..jaded JADE...

..lontarkan...

..kalau ia tidak meracun...

..kongsikan...

walau hanya pada awan-awan...

wherever it is

to live well or live hell

you choose

May Allah Bless!

P/S : missing someone who have "S" at the beginning of her name

POKOK - Meet Uncle Hussain Ft. Hazama dengan lirik | with lyric [HQ Audio]

C.U.A.I.

..lama dah x guna term ni..ada la lebih kurang 3 tahun lepas kot jadi status SKYPE gua..zaman2 undergrade dulu..kemaruk dengan lagu indie bagai..whatever song i listen, she'll listen too..mmg la boleh cope kan..sbb she's setting me as her music benchmark..tapi itu 3 tahun lepas ok..enough with memories..dalam seminggu ni, gua rasa agak C.U.A.I dalam melaksanakan kehidupan hari-hari..gua explain dalam bentuk point form..senang skit korang nak baca :

• claim form - mcm mana gua boleh lupa nak sign claim form yg berjuta-juta rupiah tue.cecite2..apa kejadahnya yg membuatkan gua lupa sedangkan gua seorang yg mata duitan (la sangat)..mmg la boleh claim next month tp NPV (nett present value) claim itu yg penting..mungkin nilai rm50 sekarang x sama dengan nilai rm50 bulan depan atau 2 bulan lagi..gua rasa la..
  

• jade - ini basic je..hampir berlaku perlanggaran x kenyal pada jade..ingat NCL 5675..lu rembat jade, gua rembat lu balik..trek Ulu Tiram - Kota Tinggi dah jadi makanan jade la der..
  

• meeting - boss call jam 1215 pagi.."deddy, u amik TS (bukan nama sebenar) kat airport jam 0815..dia naik MAS..so, around 0715 u kene bertolak dari opis"..gua pun on je sebab gua memang cum driver kat tempat kerja ni..tiba2 pagi esok gua terlajak tido..mana nak solat subuhnya..mana nak mandinya..jam 0800 bertolak dari opis..terbaikkkkk r deddy..ko memang dah lama x rasa kene penampar tangan kiri boss..sampai airport jam 0830, skali tuan direktor naik AirAsia daaa..0830 tue dia baru sampai airport..(selamat kau deddy kali ni..selamat kau)

..ada la lagi a few kecuaian2 yg berlaku tapi x berapa nak penting kot..n boleh dipertikaikan kalau diterbitkan dalam blog ini..and as acknowledgement from memories, enjoy this song..beauty!

...live in the moment...

...we hold on to the past...and...keep wondering about the future...
Not really living in the NOW!

P/S : Happy MONDAY and good day ahead!

..i'm not PULLing you...

i not expecting to get something that u can't gave,
then not blaming you for not getting good..
i didn't stand by yourside, so i won't leave,
but one day i'll regretting because not trying to be with you..
i not making you feel awry,
although i'm trying to pull you, u're just keep going far astray from me..

..closing to finish first half of the year...

..it's mid of June already and am feeling like time is ticking faster than usual to end the 2nd Quarter of the year..huh..banyak keje tak setel2 lagi..wawawaaaaa..proposal x polish lagi..monthly progress report x siap..report utk study visit ke surabaya pun baru half-way done..pastu dh xde mood nak buat..kejadahnya buat report kene ade mood..kene tampar dgn boss baru tau..huhu..but i've to admit..this year have been busier than ever..mana nak masuk hutan cari kacip fatimahnya..dgn agronomic trial yg berduyun2 datang..x campur lagi waktu berpoya2 dgn kawan2..menonton koleksi movie, drama dan anime yg ade dalam disk keras..mandikan jade(ni pun nak sembang ke)..termasuklah acara2 kehidupan yg tetibe dtg..ptt la org kg gua sll cakap, "expect the unexpected"..boss pun selalu cakap, u have to live up the "researcher" title..come hell or high water --> ni ayat gua tambah sendiri maaa..haha..and the result, dengan rasminya..gua telah menjadi workaholic (pandai2 bagi gelaran kat diri sendiri)..and for someone who have been inspired me all this time along these year..many thanks to u....jaana!!