..Telegram Dari Hati...

the book says : when u in doubt, randomize it..but since i'm not the the typical "book people"..i do the random and speaking the truth when i think it's worth telling..i have faith in my present, not to expect it will reflecting back to me..no! not!..it's not like that..my faith is not something that every person can't easily get even if it was bought, borrowed and begged..i'm choosing to believe the present because without that, i considerably have nothing..it's one of the reason for me to keep going somehow within the distance..a person who trust no one can be trusted indeed..

p/s : the truth is stranger than fiction sometimes 

a lot like faith,

Deddy Mizwar Aris

..One BIG Apology...

Assalamualaikum w.b.t and greetings to all,

due to some recent matters, some of the post have been removed transferred to draft..i'm sorry for any inconvenience..i ain't quite sure whether the post will be re-published..thanks for the support..it have been great to have you people around..(frankly i'm saying)

a lot like thanks,

Deddy Mizwar Aris

..memasak Part 1...

..tragedi ni berlaku seminggu sebelum bulan Ramadhan..gua memang kadang-kadang teringin nak memasak sebenarnya..al-maklumlah, gua kan seorang yang polos dan berjiwa murni..apatah lagi bila bulan Ramadhan tiba nanti..boleh la gua memasak untuk berbuka dan makan sahur..jimat kata nya..boleh simpan duit buat kawen..ye dak?dan sesampainya gua kat rumah lepas balik solat Jumaat, gua berniat nak makan maggi bersama telur..biasa, makanan kasta pertengahan..gua pun panaskan minyak dalam kuali..sementara nak menunggu minyak panas, gua dengan rajinnya pegi mengemas buku serta majalah yg ada dalam bilik..terlebih rajin gamaknya masa 2..dalam lebih kurang 20 minit gua rasa rumah gua dah penuh dengan asap..demm..sape yg buat pembakaran terbuka waktu tgh ari yg mulia ni..tiba-tiba gua teringat kuali td..ahhh sudah..gua berlari-lari anak ke dapur dan ternyata intuisi gua betul..kuali tue dah terbakar..dengan asap berkepul2..gua panik ni..dalam hati gua jangan la gas tu meletup dulu..sewa rumah bulan depan x bayar lagi (xde kaitan)..gua masuk bilir air..amik gayung dan terus simbah air ke dapur..x sampai 4 saat api pun padam..gua check 2,kuali dengan sudip dah hangus..dan satu lagi, dinding dapur rumah gua yg damai tue pun dah bertukar jadi kaler hitam..gua start Jade..pergi office dengan muka kelat..duduk melepek kat depan pc sambil tahan lapar..syabas deddy..syabas..gagal sekali x bermakna gagal selamanya.. 

p/s : jangan nak rajin sgt la memasak sambil kemas buku dlm bilik..

..I am NOTHING...

it is not that i am not thankful. i am.

tapi entahlah. selalu rasa kecil dan diperkecil.

selalu rasa tidak penting dan dipinggirkan.

selalu rasa gagal dan dipandang gagal.

why?

hurmm...

i am not as good as they are.

i am not good. indeed.

P/S : as i'm only finished the thing that she's started..

..Harapan Ramadhan...