..bad blood rises...

entri gua kali ini utk berkongsi sesuatu yg agak menyakitkan hati..apatah lagi ianya berlaku pada bulan yg mulia ini malahan di khayalak ramai..petang semalam..dlm perjalanan gua balik ke kampung dr tempat keje, gua singgah sebentar di bazaar ramadhan utk membeli juadah berbuka..gua mmg plan nk g lmbt skit sbb lepas beli juadah berbuka..gua nk terus balik berbuka di umh (kirenye x singgah melagho di mane2 tempat la nie..hehe)...sesampainya gua kt bazaar, gua pun menyusup masuk ikut jalan belakang..lengang skit..x yah nak berhimpit2 dgn org ramai..tibe2 gua terpandang kt sekumpulan remaja yg tgh melepak kt tepi longkang sebelah bazaar tue.."eh..dh masuk waktu berbuka ke nie"..hati gua berdetak sbb melihat segelintir makhluk dr kumpulan tersebut menghisap rokok..haish..x dgr azan pun..gua pn terkial2 kuarkn henpon gua sbb nk memastikan waktu semasa (gua x mampu nk pakai jam tangan..hehe)..dan seperti yg dijangka..belum masuk waktu berbuka lg!!! ape kejadah nye mamat tue smoking dgn muka bangga dgn member2 die kt tepi longkang 2..elok la 2..perangai pn dh mcm longkang..igt mandat die besar sgt ke nk menunjuk yg diri sendiri x puasa di khayalak ramai..iye..gua tau..kubur lain2...tp x salah kan kalo lu cover2 skit nk smoking tue..x malu ke budak2 kecik tgk?org2 tua tgk?x malu dgn Tuhan??ape la...gua tau gua pn xde la baik sgt...takat nk tunjuk otai tahap x igt dunia pn jgn la mcm 2 derr..respect skit org lain yg berpuasa..tue x campur dgn kaum Hawa yg g bazaar pakai baju mcm nk g clubbing...atau g garden party...akak2 oi..kesian la kt kami kaum Adam nie..bkn nye nk tunjuk baik..tp sekurang2 nye..hormatilah bulan Ramadhan..masih x terlambat lg kn??

..still doom and gloom...

"i'm not read well..but when i do read, i read well"

..tomorrow will be my last day for probation and in a mean time, i'll be officially represented as devoted servant for biotropics at research station..

..but then, working for them doesn't mean i'm out of the woods yet..there's still much to be done before "they" will have upper-look in me..although i think i'm already missed the boat(sorely miss bcoz she'll deliver her 1st baby this month)..however this is paradigm-quantum leap(ayat yg gua blaja mase g "7 Habits of highly effective people") for me to prove for "them" that i can succeed like others equally..arggghh!! why i'm still remember everything..most likely on the way she walk..on the moment she talk..but perhaps i'm already found her natural replacement..a gift from HIM, i think..hopefully she'll be the chosen one..nuff said...